|2004: Morgan singing her ABC's to me for the first time|
The bottom line is that this is my personal blog and if you don't like what you're reading then don't read it. That said, I promise that I will do as much as I can to state facts rather than rumors and to limit my mention of other people, no matter how much I want to say more. This blog is my safe place and I share the happenings of my life with you to seek comfort in community. I pray that you will read this with an open heart and continue lifting my family up in prayer.
A few months ago I posted this about my little sister, Morgan (half-sister by blood, full-sister by love). This was my attempt to paint a picture of the difficult life Morgan has had in the most diplomatic way possible. I did not blog about how bad her home life has truly been since our dad has been with his current wife, Vicky. I did not blog about how my dad called me in January sobbing that Vicky told him he had to choose between her and Morgan and that he did not know what to do. (How do you NOT know what to do in that situation?). During said conversation, my dad told me point blank that Morgan was not the problem and that Vicky just did not want to be tied down to a 10 year old child (He said all of this to me directly, this is not a rumor or speculation). My biggest regret is helping my dad protect his pride by not telling anyone about this because since this has become an issue, I have had family members from both my dad's side and mom's side (who are not related to Morgan at all) volunteer without question to take care of her. I myself would have done it if I truly knew how seriously demented and sick my dad is.
|2005 at Cousin Wendy's wedding|
Yesterday I got the supposed phone number of the woman Morgan is living with, but I have not been able to get into contact with anyone. Please pray for me, that I would have the strength to keep pursuing my sister because there have been some points where I've met opposition from family members and it has made me wish I was dead instead of living through this. Please pray for the woman who is taking care of Morgan, that she is a good and strong woman who wants to give Morgan the love and support she deserves. Please pray for my dad (although I will admit I have not had the strength to do this myself), because Jesus tells us we must pray for our enemies and I cannot imagine how he can walk through life with the guilt of leaving his baby when he is financially and physically capable of raising her himself.
Most of all, please pray for my baby sister Morgan who, at 10 years old, does not deserve the life that was given to her. Please pray that she does not feel lonely, that she has Jesus with her and she lets him comfort her. Please pray that she is safer physically and emotionally than she was when she was with our dad. Most of all, please pray that she uses all of this to become a stronger, more faithful woman of God and that her difficulties are used to create a powerful testimony of what God Almighty is capable of doing in the life of someone who was without anything. I believe He is the Father to the fatherless and He has taught me every day this week what it truly means to depend on him for this.
Thank you for your support. I am so grateful that I have this blog to get my feelings out and know so many bloggers who I can trust to share my heart with.